And now, we wait
Our home study is nearly done - done enough that our Illinois social worker is ready to start showing our profile to folks, even though we can't activate with our Indiana agency until it's 100% done. Apparently it's ok to work with more than one agency as long as everyone knows when your profile is being shown so they don't double-show you.
So far we've been shown to one potential mom, who didn't pick us. Another potential mom is on the horizon. If someone does pick us, then we wait until the baby is born to see if she decides to place or not. It's going to be a long, nerve-wracking few months/year. This is why I didn't want to do domestic in the first place...but. I keep reminding myself not to make it about me. I'm wishing for it to happen quickly, and not to cause me too much pain, but I'm not praying for that. My prayer is, "let the woman who needs me, find me." For that to happen I have to be more open, more trusting, and have more faith, than I would have believed I could be.
Let the woman who needs me, find me.